Man, your girl is a little under the clouds today. But I am sitting here at work trying to work it out. Keep smiling I mean. Kinda scatterbrained today. Trying to focus, but it ain't workin. Oh welly.
Welllll, today. Hmmm? Let's see... The Lord is really taking me some places that I need to be. I am trying my best to learn to express the 'feminine' side of me. Cause your girl is a bit of a rough neck. But that's my norm, that's what I'm used to. Know what I mean?
Anyway I was reading someone's post and they were talking about how much they love thier man. This really touched me because there is this wonderful, irritating, loving, selfish, caring, smart mouthed, beautiful person that I am in love with. (Did I just say that!? ewww gross lol :O) I am constantly battling just the simple principle of relaxing and letting him love me. Who knew it would be this hard!! Oh My Goodness. A lifetime of lies and deceit will do that to you. But you can't live in the past right? Right. It's just hard to replace old habits with new ones. But I am tryin my damndest!!(is that even a word!? lol) So pray for ya sister!!
Along with that, it is so hard to be strong for someone when they are going through a financial/mental crisis. So hard because I want to go into save the world mode, but I can't. No matter how much I want to. Have to look out for me first. And that is exactly what I am learning to do. Learning to find that balance...Cause ya'll know men can be spoiled. Lol.
I just love this pic. Yessir!! :)
But uh...I read through a few blogs today and they gave me some inspiration, so I just want to thank you. (Sorry don't remember any names.)
Anyway, I hope that you all are blessed and grateful for every gift given to you.
Peacez and Blessingz.
Phrase 4 your daysz:
IF YOU DO NOT TRY, YOU WILL MOST DEFINATELY FAIL.