Thursday, October 04, 2007

Where My Head Is At...


Been trying to ignore this feeling, but God is bugging me to face it. When a member of your fam acts as though they don't love you, it hurts. Deep. No matter how tough you appear to be, it still hurts.
I have been trying to keep my mind clear and be positive. Trying not to clamp up and isolate myself...again (like I always do). Don't want to mess up my current relationship.
But to tell the truth, I am PISSED. P-I-S-S-E-D.
I am angry because I am letting another person have this kind of affect on me.
Made me feel like I am a little girl yearning for his praise...acceptance...yet again.
Wish I was beyond that.
I don't want to give up on our relationship....but dang!

I just don't know what to do.
Keep putting myself in harms way or what?
Lord Lord...

A Few Quotes I am feelin:

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
~Eleanor Roosevelt

Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first, the lesson afterwards.
~G.K. Chesterton


Be blessed.

6 comments:

E2Deep said...

I'm not too sure whats going on with you, but all I want to say to you is stay strong dont let ANYONE bring you down.

Sha Boogie said...

I am diggin the Roosevelt quote - I just got finished telling my little sister that, no one can make you feel anyway unless you let them.

Madam said...

You be blessed too Hon...Pray, meditate, and make moves :-)

Nitty-Gritty said...

First and far most, if you haven't already you need to pray. There is Power in Prayer!

Second, I don't know if you are married; if you are try and work on it. (I am assuming you are talking about your spouse. If not, then you don't compromise!! especially if you are putting yourself in harms way. God wouldn't put you in this position, but the Devil will do anything to steal your praise, so he will trick you to believe that you need praises of others and when you start to believe that you find yourself not looking to GOD for answers. If you haven't start praying to God more than ever today.

Let me pray for you:

Father in the Name of Jesus I pray that everything that she is looking for in people she will find in you. Father, I pray that you will cover her and give the wisdom to know what is your works. Draw her closer to you God, give her the gift of discernment, so that she may know before hand what dicisions to make. Father in Jesus Name I ask that you keep her and protect her from Harm, Lord I pray that you give her a feeling in the pit of her stomach at the sign of danger. Father I don't know what it is that she is going through, but I pray that she will pray to you more than once a day and that you will reveal to her the power of Prayer in Jesus Name Amen.

Mizrepresent said...

Lady, there are times we all feel this way. I've had too many to count...but the truth is, you got to feel you, your wants, your needs, your joy.

Lyrically speaking said...

Amen, I am LOVING THIS POST. Wow...I've been there, allowing this one guy to dominate my spirit, yearning for his approval yet he never had anything good to say about me and slowly I was dieing inside. His words spreading inside my soul like cancer then I realized I needed to cut him off completely and when I did, boy, did I feel better. A dark veil has been lifted off. Don't allow any being to cloud your sun.